Lacking

Great article here to educate yourself on fertility issues.

I was going to originally just post this previous sentence. That was going to be my grand statement. But, given the secrecy/shame associated with fertility, I'm going to chronicle our journey here. To catch you up to date:

We tried on our own for a few months in the spring and summer of 2009. After a few unsuccessful months, I decided I wasn't ready for the emotional strain put on Jay and myself.

When Scout turned two in 2010, we began trying again. After more and more and more months of unsuccessful attempts, I decided that in November, I would make an appointment with my Obgyn and hopefully get a referral so that Jay and I could return to Texas Fertility Center. (I guess I should inform you that we were patients with Dr. Silverberg at TFC and successfully got pregnant after our first round of Clomid back in 2007--hence Scout).

After meeting with our Obgyn, we decided that we would do a round of Clomid through her office, and began our first round of 50ml Clomid. We had a proven track record in the form of a fierce 2 year old, and believed that it would work again because I seemed to be ovulating every month without the assistance of prescriptions. No luck. So, just before Christmas...we were aware of our very real struggle to get pregnant.

We tried again in January. We didn't want to get our hopes up. But I have to admit, when we upped the dosage to 100mls, I was expecting results. Soon after, another ultrasound with tiny follicles. Basically, my ovulation cycle is not like everyone else's. It's unpredictable and likes to keep us guessing. Not only that, but the side effects of this dosage were incredibly different. Insomnia, light-headed feelings, nervous energy/panic, and emotional outbursts...in other words, I was turned upside down for about two weeks. Not to mention the pressure of "this better be worth it."

THEN...the big news came that we were moving across the country. So, in a tearful discussion with my obgyn, in February...days before Scout's 3rd birthday...I asked what our next step was. She said that if we were staying in Austin, she would recommend we see an REI specialist. That's Reproductive Endocrinologist and Infertility specialist. Basically, they outline a plan or two and you go home to decide which route is the way to go. But since we were moving....she thought the best thing to do is to wait until we get settled in our new home and then when we were ready, head to the REI specialist.

SO...Monday. August 23rd, 2011. We went to visit Dr. John Jain at Santa Monica Fertility. Coincidentally, the pediatrician that Scout sees is in the same building....across the courtyard. Walking in, we felt at ease...the staff and the doctor were incredibly helpful. We left there with more information than we had received since TFC. We feel at ease with our decision to pursue IUI and have complete trust in the doctor and nurse that will be treating us along the way.

That being said, we have a few more hoops to jump through. There are a few tests that Jay and I have to endure before we can actually get started...but after it all...we have hope.